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(no subject) [Jan. 23rd, 2005|08:28 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
I've made a new journal because this one annoys me now. I was going to settle for a new layout until I realized how much the username disgusts me and angers me to think of how I used to write poems. Lame. Anyways here it is:

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It's friends only and you must comment in order to be added. Nothing personal, just trying to clean up my friends list a bit. Everyone who comments will be added.

Thank you.
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(no subject) [Jan. 22nd, 2005|12:03 am]
FearIsNocturnal
So Erica made me throw up... and now my appendix has exploded. I'm so upset.
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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2005|10:48 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |tiredtired]

So I guess this is my bi-weekly entry. I can't make promises of quality because I'm sleepy and don't really feel like updating. So friday I went to skatezone and didn't see travis's band because I didn't feel like getting there before 8, though I did hear from several people that he's a poor singer. Um... I was super sad when I saw how upset Erica was thanks to her slutty friends whoring it up all night. I did however manage to discover her magical sheep earing pierro. That was cool I guess. Um so durring that really horrible band when I was in the parking lot with Karissa and Jenna's friend who was really cool I had the joy of meeting and later frolicing with Pierro the magical sheep earing. Um so the saturday I hung out with Jenna and got all wet in the rain when we went to pick up her brother. Def. not enjoyable. Sunday I fely crappy and sat at home hoping someone would call but not really caring or counting on if they did. I watched movies :). Um monday I ran around all day hoping to get my physical... which I did just in time for practice. I'm sorry, "evaluations." I forgot my cleats and had to do the agility run in sneakers. Not cool, but easy enough to do in the alotted time. My mile time was a minute slower then my norm, but a minute faster then what it had to be, so terrific. Tonight at my game I was injured and now my right side hurts from waist to knee. I was attacked.. booo.

Also, Erica is getting a special message for being so super and non-slutty. Also because I just felt like it was a special message that needed giving... So cut the sassing or it'll be five across the mouth.
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(no subject) [Jan. 8th, 2005|07:06 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |crappycrappy]
[music |Green Day]

I only have tomorrow left I guess... not that it matters. I didn't do anything today because I suck and didn't feel like it. Yesterday by all means should have been good but ended up crappy. I was kind of upset all day and my brother was giving me a headache with his band practice in the garage. Erica came over in her gangster car. That was terrific because Erica is so super awesome, but then she went to see if Travis was home and I went to eat. I ended up going to skatezone with Jenna and Kellie to see a show there which ended up being the worst show I have ever been to. I will never go to a show at skatezone again unless I personally know a band. So I was super pissed that the show sucked so much and that the first band gave me a headache and I had way to much stuff on my mind and was already sad about things. Then Erica came and that was good except I was trying to hard not to be sad about stuff. Sorry to anyone I saw there if I was distant but chances are I didn't like you anyway so I don't care really. I thought Erica left so I went in for awhile and decided I needed to go for a walk but Erica was outside so I sat with her. I don't really remember yesterday very well. Maybe I was sleepy or something. Then when it was time to go I think I was veeeeery close to getting into a fight. I was looking for one maybe but then Jenna's mom came so no fight. I don't remember. I was just super angry and then those girls made me even angrier and I was ready to start something I guess. Ehh. I hate people. People are jerks.
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(no subject) [Jan. 6th, 2005|05:19 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |boredbored]
[music |Audio Karate - Halfway Decent]

Hokay. So I have a feeling the remainder of my winter break is going to be very unsatisfactory. There is no where to go and no way of getting there. I get that "Oh we should really hang out before we go back to school." but I am not satisfied at the mere notion of doing something. I tell people to call but my orders go unlistened to.

I'm reading two books and they are extremely good. My favorite of the two is "Prey" by Micheal Crichton. It's about an experiment in the desert that has gone horribly wrong. A cloud of nanoparticles (micro-robots, or microbots) has escaped from the laboratory. The cloud is self-sustaining and self-reproducing. It is intelligent and learns from experience. For all practical purposes, it is alive. It has been programmed as a predator to keep it goal oriented and it is evolving at a rapid pace, becoming more deadly with each passing hour. Every attempt to destroy it has failed and we are the prey.

The other book I am reading is for chemistry. It's called the Cobra Event. It focuses on biological weapons and is also a very good book. A terrorist has released a biological agent and it is killing people. The virus is as contagious as the common cold and is gotten either from another person or inhaled directly. It causes a painful death including blood blisters in all external openings (and I do mean ALL) and arc de circle seizures. An arc de circle seizure is different from a regular one. In a regular seizure your body remains straight and rigid but in an arc de circle seizure the body forms a "C." The abdomen is thrust into the air arching the spine until the heels and head touch supporting all body weight until the spine snaps. The cause of death is a swelling in the brain which is so intense it pushes against the inside of the victims skull crushing the middle brain, causeing the victim to return to a primitive, violent state during this ordeal. Often times they will just eat parts of themself including their fingers, lips tounges and the insides of their mouth. I almost threw up on more than one occation because of the graphic nature and descriptiveness of the book and I am only about halfway through. Ick. I like it because it has that sense of impending doom but is at the same time plausable.

Audio Karate [Halfway Decent]Collapse )
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(no subject) [Jan. 4th, 2005|07:41 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]
[music |Jeff Beck with the Jan Hammer group live]

Fuck You LiveJournalCollapse )
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(no subject) [Dec. 24th, 2004|05:55 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |blahblah]
[music |The Distillers - Beat Your Heart Out]

I guess I'm updating because I wont have time to/won't feel like it later. I have to go to church later on... to see Jesus. That's cool I guess. Then tomorrow is christmas. Then the next day I'll be packing all day so we can go to Tennesse that night, and then I won't be home for about 8 days or so. We're driving too. 14 hours in a car with my family. Yay. Christmas really brings out the best in people. On that note, today I heard some mom yelling at her kid when we were at Gamestop getting my brother something. "You're not getting anything for Christmas Billy, now get in the goddamn car!" and the kids crying cause he's little... haha.. Nothing like the Christmas spirit. I remember when we were those kids and we were tired of being dragged around all day and my mom was tired of doing it. Holidays have always been hell. I don't know why we love them so much.. but I guess I do anyway. I still have to give Erin her present. I'll bring it to you tomorrow(?) Oh and Erica... but she doesn't live close enough to me and I can't drive so I'll just make her wait.

I think I got A's and B's on my exams. Maybe a C in stats. Defiantly A's in Pre-cal and American History. Also in Yearbook but... I didn't finish my spreads so I don't know. I hope everyone did well. I have to start the count on my permit over. I only had like 2 months left too. Now I have a YEAR from December 22. That's so lame. Ugh. Horrible. I feel really blah today. Maybe that's why my post is so long and dumb. Oh well. Leave lots of comments while I'm gone (and of course I know that by saying that I'll receive the exact opposite).

Happy Holidays Everyone.
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(no subject) [Dec. 20th, 2004|06:51 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |apatheticapathetic]
[music |Tsunami Bomb-A Lonely Chord]

I can't wait until you fall this way. You could always take my hand, but then, you can't take something that's not offered. How does if feel to finally be the one on the outside looking in? Looking in at someone who doesn't care, because I don't care. I'm not the bad guy here... I'm just repeating what I see.
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(no subject) [Dec. 17th, 2004|06:18 pm]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |Green Day]

Would you ever..
() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() cuddle with me?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a nap with me?
() be my gf/bf?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if i didnt have money?
() take me home for the night?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaoke with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() give me a piggyback ride?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
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(no subject) [Nov. 27th, 2004|10:08 am]
FearIsNocturnal
[mood |pessimisticpessimistic]
[music |Tsunami Bomb [Dawn On A Funeral Day]]

I'm thankful that theres only 2 more years of high school, and then I get to leave this place behind forever. I guess I'd have to come back on the holidays, but my moms going to move when seans in college anyway, so thats just one more year of holidays. My entry's two days late. I didn't feel like being in the spirit of the holiday and giving all those stupid answers we all no aren't true. "I'm thankful for my friends and family." Yes we're all thankful for that. At least we say we are. Just a pretense to disguise that you're a moron, but its ok, I play that game too.

What were you thankful for this Thanksgiving?
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